Princess inside Snow Globe.

Perhaps she was just another pretty face.

But, I broke her.

She was a princess living inside a snow globe.

I could not see her face

Beneath the hood of her long, white winter coat.

But, I could tell she was

Beautiful.

So exotic and elegant.

I gazed upon her shrouded beauty night and day.

But, I could not settle for that.

I wanted more.

I wanted to see her face.

I wanted her out of that snow globe

So I could finally touch her as well as look at her.

I did not want to hurt or endanger her.

But, I saw no safe way to release her.

I shook the snow globe furiously

Like some primitive-minded caveman.

"Get out!

Get out!

Get out of this prison!" I cried.

But, she did not hear me.

Or, she chose not to listen.

I thought she wanted the same things.

I thought she and I were connected.

Frustrated,

I left her alone for a time.

When I returned months later

And found myself tempted by her appearance once more,

I took hold and shook the snow globe feverishly.

Had I not learned my lesson?

She did not approve of this.

She expressed pain and displeasure in her own subtle plastic way.

I was sorry for having caused her this.

But, I could not take it back.

I could not give up my quest to free her.

I did not give much thought to the end results.

What if it would kill her to be free of the snow globe?

What if she needed that watery womb to survive?

I would hate to be the one who ended that life.

Still, I felt a connection.

A whim and/or desire

For something more than distant ogling.

To kiss her lips.

And, I let it consume me.

I tuned out all other voices

And threw caution to the wind.

I forced her to give me consent.

And,

With little effort at all,

I shattered that glass prison(or sanctuary).

Finally,

I could touch her.

Hold her.

Feel her every curve and groove.

It was all I could ever want

Given to me after such a long time.

So long I had waited.

And, now she was mine.

Or so I thought.

No.

It was not a dream come true.

In fact,

She turned out to be less than a fantasy.

A mirage of imagined reality.

She was a disappointment.

She had told me so.

But, I would not listen.

And now,

She is no longer protected by that snow globe.

No longer is she safe from others who would harm her.

Perhaps I am no better than them.

Those I would consider lesser beings than myself.

So young.

So fragile.

And, I broke her.

I broke her,

And she will never be the same.

But, why did I let it consume me?

The beautiful dream I envisioned so long ago.

I ruined it.

It did not have to happen.

We could have found harmony.

But, no longer is this possible.

If only there was another way.

[A passing inspiration in the night. A potential disaster realized in fictional prose reflecting the story that is somehow connected with me.]

Pinky Pinky...

 Heyyy pal am so thankful that i have you in my life, and the fact that my friends are very few does not upset me AT ALL, for i have you, and having YOU makes me content and pleased… i am very honored to be the well of your secrets, this means the world to me.. and i want you to know that your secrets are NEVER(though you never shared one, but your MOM told me some of yours) a burden on me

Our friendship is a miracle itself.. a bless.. a strength that enables us to go on along this bumpy road knowing things will be just fine, becuz at the end of the day, we know we each have someone who cares about us no matter what happens… or what wrong we may do…I felt this after our recent meeting which happened on 24^th may in my hometown… Heyyy a grin spread on my face thinking about you…actually a grin spread on my face imagining about you as a baby SUMO…JYou imagined me, so did I…ha ha ha

It is such a wonder how when it comes to us, we treat each other differently, I have never managed to treat other friends the way I treat you! I have never managed to accept their faults, nor bare with some qualities of theirs which contradict to my own.. I easily get angry on others but I never got angry on you… may be you have the magic potion of friendship which makes me smile and encourages me to tease you to make you laugh as well as cry… ha ha ha… I should not be harsh on people nor judgmental, but I am ashamed to say I have not achieved this with some people, and proud to know I can never judge you, nor feel agitated about anything... Knowing there is someone in this world I feel this way about lets me realize I have been given a gift millions have never dreamed of obtaining.

I am thankful, for your friendship, for the bond that back at some point in our life was about to break, but thanks to you, to your insistence, your patience, not only mended this relationship, but made it one of the rarest in this world… every time I look back at those days, I remember how bad I felt, how lonely, how tears were not only warm and bitter, but brutally stabbing my foolish heart… I Thank you, that these days have passed by bringing along brighter memories.. i am glad i did not leave the chance i had to go waste… for i would have ended up suffering my entire life

Many people, when they love someone truly, be it any relationship starting from friendship, family to Love….keep on telling them how they will do anything in the world for their sake, it may sound to some as a scene in a movie or a chapter in a novel, it did seem so for me at some stage, but those who witness true love, understand well that these are not only some mere words that are being said and then forgotten.. it is a promise made without a slight thought, a swear, a practice not in front of a court judge, not because I have to, but because it pleasures  souls to do so for those who matter the most….

Sometimes I joke around with my family, telling them that when I die, they are not allowed to enjoy my belongings! lol instead, my books for example will go to my soul-mate, even if she has the same books!… for I am sure, the ones she haven’t read yet, she would read them from the ones that used to belong to meeee…I strongly believe that He will grant everyone the wish that we all want more than anything in this world, the prayer I never forget to say, the need I always plead for when I pray, the relief that I strongly desire no matter how greedy it may sound…

But…. Don’t go, and break this fragile heart….. but break it, only if it would help mend yours, and i mean it from the deepest point in my heart

Best Friend...

To my best friend,

A Best friend, everyone has one.. I guess everyone yes…. You can tell all your secrets to her, when you're down you call her to get it of your chest. She'll listen to you and really cares about you and wants to help you with your problems. Even if she's far away you can always call her for advice. I too have a best friend. She is very sweet and caring. I can’t reveal her name…I don’t want to give her any unnecessary problems…So here is something about her…

Wherever you may be, I just wanted to let you know that you are amazing. I wanted to thank you for everything you have ever done for me. You have always been there when I needed you, and you were always by my side when times got rough. I want to thank you for trusting me, and listening to me when I needed you to. I wanted to let you know that everything you do means a lot to me even though it seems as if most of it is trivial and stupid. I wanted to thank you for letting me help you in some technical aspects, even though I know that you really knew something…

It's only been three, almost four years since I met you, but it seems like its been a lifetime. I never really thought that I would get to know you so well, in the beginning sometimes I used to make fun of you. Then I got to know you, and I grew fond of you. I began to see who the real you was. I learned to see the good in people because of you.

I know you will never see this, and I'm ok with that. This post is to you, for you, about you, and dedicated to you. Even though I never got to tell you this in person, and even though it slipped once before, I just wanted to say I Love You. From the bottom most part of my soul I want to say I Love You. I want to stand atop the largest buildings and shout it to the world, but sadly these words will fall upon deaf ears.

Whenever I talked with you it made me feel so good… I never had the courage to really tell you how I feel about you, and even though you know I like you, you still are oblivious to the fact that I love you. I know I can never be the right guy for you, and I know that I've chased you secretly for almost four years, but beyond that we are still friends, and that’s all I ask for.

There have only been two people I have ever cried over in my life, one was my grandfather. He died in September, 2007. He meant a lot to me, and nothing can replace him. The other was you. You are the only person I have ever felt this way for, and I will never forget you.

To all of those who read this, this is tribute to my best friend. She is everything to me, and I can never tell her how I feel. It's far too complicated to spell out for anyone, and I want you to all know the even if you cant have the one you love, there is still hope. Even if its a glimmer, or the faintest sliver, there is still a hope. My hope is that one day she will realize how I feel, and that I fell for her years ago. I know you will get someone who will keep you happy like a princess and you will also love him like you never did, and that we are best friends. I know that you know I have feelings for you, and I'm glad you didn't drive me away when you found out. Thanks for being with me…

But…. Don’t go, and break this fragile heart….. but break it, only if it would help mend yours, and i mean it from the deepest point in my heart.