Best Friend...

To my best friend,

A Best friend, everyone has one.. I guess everyone yes…. You can tell all your secrets to her, when you're down you call her to get it of your chest. She'll listen to you and really cares about you and wants to help you with your problems. Even if she's far away you can always call her for advice. I too have a best friend. She is very sweet and caring. I can’t reveal her name…I don’t want to give her any unnecessary problems…So here is something about her…

Wherever you may be, I just wanted to let you know that you are amazing. I wanted to thank you for everything you have ever done for me. You have always been there when I needed you, and you were always by my side when times got rough. I want to thank you for trusting me, and listening to me when I needed you to. I wanted to let you know that everything you do means a lot to me even though it seems as if most of it is trivial and stupid. I wanted to thank you for letting me help you in some technical aspects, even though I know that you really knew something…

It's only been three, almost four years since I met you, but it seems like its been a lifetime. I never really thought that I would get to know you so well, in the beginning sometimes I used to make fun of you. Then I got to know you, and I grew fond of you. I began to see who the real you was. I learned to see the good in people because of you.

I know you will never see this, and I'm ok with that. This post is to you, for you, about you, and dedicated to you. Even though I never got to tell you this in person, and even though it slipped once before, I just wanted to say I Love You. From the bottom most part of my soul I want to say I Love You. I want to stand atop the largest buildings and shout it to the world, but sadly these words will fall upon deaf ears.

Whenever I talked with you it made me feel so good… I never had the courage to really tell you how I feel about you, and even though you know I like you, you still are oblivious to the fact that I love you. I know I can never be the right guy for you, and I know that I've chased you secretly for almost four years, but beyond that we are still friends, and that’s all I ask for.

There have only been two people I have ever cried over in my life, one was my grandfather. He died in September, 2007. He meant a lot to me, and nothing can replace him. The other was you. You are the only person I have ever felt this way for, and I will never forget you.

To all of those who read this, this is tribute to my best friend. She is everything to me, and I can never tell her how I feel. It's far too complicated to spell out for anyone, and I want you to all know the even if you cant have the one you love, there is still hope. Even if its a glimmer, or the faintest sliver, there is still a hope. My hope is that one day she will realize how I feel, and that I fell for her years ago. I know you will get someone who will keep you happy like a princess and you will also love him like you never did, and that we are best friends. I know that you know I have feelings for you, and I'm glad you didn't drive me away when you found out. Thanks for being with me…

But…. Don’t go, and break this fragile heart….. but break it, only if it would help mend yours, and i mean it from the deepest point in my heart.