Random Thoughts....

Today my thoughts were all over the place. One minute I am focused on a goal to be completed the next I am thinking about someone whom I really shouldn't even have been. Yeah my ''love''. She just kind of popped up recently and like that she is in my thoughts eating away at what could have been valuable time. But in honesty it is kind of welcomed. I feel like a dream guy sneaking a day dream in of a fantasy date or even.... *blushes*

 “When I think of love, I see it as a two sided coin. On the one side, it can make you feel like you're on top of the world. But on the other side, it can cause a lot of pain and suffering. What it all comes down to is that one cannot exist without the other. It's just a question of how each person deals with it. Some can live happily with love. Others can't live happily with it. As for me, I can't live without love.

Love means a lot to me. I know most people would laugh at what I believe when it comes to love but that won’t stop me from believing. I am true at heart and when I love someone...it not only comes from the heart. It's truly an unconditional love. Why? Because I believe that to truly love someone you have to accept them for who they are. Just because they have a few problems, physically or in some cases...emotionally, doesn't mean that makes them less than a person, or not worthy of love. You have to ask yourself this one important question.

How would I feel if I were in that persons shoes?
Would I want to be turned away for the slightest thing?

Just remember....love is a two way street. Love cannot exist if you don't give your trust and understanding to someone. In order for love to work.....you have to love, trust and have faith upon the person you are with and they have to give you theirs in return. If only one person is doing it, then love isn't working.

Throwing yourself out there just to get let down. Having people lie straight to your face when they swear they’re telling the truth. Looking forward to a promise they made just to get crushed when they don’t follow through in the end. Aren’t you tired of hearing “I’m sorry”, I’ll make it up to you”, and “I swear it will never happen again”. Many don’t know how hard it is to trust again when you’ve been taken for granted more than once by the person that you thought you could trust. 

Trust is a very fragile thing and once you lose someone’s trust it’s hard to gain it all back. Having trust issues builds walls. These walls seem like they can be up forever, just when you think a door is opening for one of these walls there is another door locking behind it to keep you out. It makes it hard to express true feelings because you think someone is going to take advantage of what you’re saying and end up being like everyone else who hurt you in the past. Opening up just a little bit is the hardest thing someone with trust issues to possibly do.

"Love is a wonderful thing. Treat it with care and it will treat you wonderfully.”

wat do i see? is that the light at the end of the tunnel? i sure hope not. this tunnel is scary and dark but it has its like spots and it can be pretty.im not ready for it to be done. But, i see the light. All im hoping for is that its just a hole in the ceiling.....but it doesnt look like it from here...Have to wait and watch the compatibility..