Is there really ever a beginning? I
mean ever one you can get to... When people ask you to start at the
beginning, what does that mean? Do you start at the beginning of that moment,
day, year...? Do you start at what lead you to the moment, day or year....?
And exactly, how much of the beginning does one really want to hear
anyway? So, I'm not going to start at any particular 'beginning'...I'm
just going to write. There won't be a story line or piece by piece puzzle that
will all fit together into some grand picture at the end of this journey...This
is just me, a guy with a whole lot of questions, a whole lot of heartache,
frustration, loneliness.....and love.
i don't know what to say to her
do i tell her everything will end up
right
or do i say how much i care
and that i'll be here till the end?
how do i bring the smile back to her
face
i miss the way she used to look
a grin from ear to ear
i thought she would be so happy
but broken hearts get to the best of us
I don't know what to say to her
she doesn't believe a word i say
i tell her that i'd give her a hug
she doesn't know how to respond
I'd do anything to see a smile on her
face
passion in her eyes
love breaking her heart
Well,
I'm in the middle of homework. Homework due tomorrow. Anyway....lets
see here... though I had actual thoughts but maybe more than anything… I'm
procrastinating. It's ironic really. I'm a bad student who doesn’t
like making good grades....therefore i'm also a procrastinator. I'm
not as much of one as i use to be but i still have my moments. I feel
like things have been mostly about training and work and some sleep and
thoughts about her. i feel like the past week or two has been mostly
that...ok not entirely but mostly.....I feel kinda ADD right now.....maybe
that's why my thoughts r not exactly organized....at least its organic, right?
lol.....I feel so in need of a
break. It's not that too much is on me but its just that I have stuff to
do all the time. But its better probably for me than not being
busy. When i'm not busy I have a hard time relaxing, and i just tend not
to do as well. If i'm way to busy it wears on me too....I just have to
find my balance. Now that things r done w/ Vasu, I feel in need of some
friend time, ha and shopping time. I even have hang out shoping
plans lined up, but there w/ a friend that things r alright w/ but we have
history. Sometimes I feel like i don't even know if i should only
be friend with vasu.... According to me she is the only one who could make me perfect in various aspects....that
sounds kinda weird, maybe rude but i do wonder sometimes. I guess its
just that i have friends and that i have seen both their good and bad sides and
when i was younger i really didn’t have those kind of friends, the ones u know
too well.
Man, i hope i don't sound like a jerk.
I guess I'm just questioning things. right now i want things to stay kinda
stable as they r, mostly cus i don't wanna experience isolation....
Couldn’t feel much better than the way
I feel tonight.
Feels like I could live forever, feels
like I could fly
Coz when I thought I’d get it wrong,
You somehow make things right
It’s the way you make me feel
It’s better than it’s ever been
I can’t seem to control it,
It’s the way you make me feel
Weird…huh…
idk where all of this babbling is coming from.... I don't know it would be an approval or rejection from you... to publish u or not... random
thoughts? that is the question. Awaiting for the answer
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