Monday, November 22, 2010

Nighmare--I'm Haunted (Part 2)


I sit here and type this knowing that I really should be searching or preparing for job/interview knowing that i have less than 24 hours to get in.  However, have you ever gotten something on your mind and you just can't focus on anything else until you express your feelings on said subject to someone?  That is what is going on with me right now. 

Make yourself perfectly easy about this trip...... A trip to the traditions of India. People in general look for the end of the week; they feel as if it will all end soon just because the end of the section of a six days in which they can hangout to get refreshed. So the turn of the week is a hot bed of fertility if you wish to start a trip. But in my case the trip started in the mid of the week and ended on the last day of the week. 

It is interesting to note the postmodernist accretions of this particular mutation of the strain which we all posses during the tiring week: the strain vanished by seeing the disarming overlay of a casual, regular beautiful......; the fast-and-loose references to the culture; But the thing that really caused me to write was the notion, embedded in the minds of four of us, the feeling , that just can't even begin to communicate meaningfully because our intents and purposes. I do not deny that this can be a very compelling response when confronted with someone with an outlook which is fundamentally divergent from one's own. I just don know what i wrote above.....bear with me..... the story is very simple..so here it goes...

I had two sleepless nights considering the fact that i have to meet her and the most difficult thing was buying a gift. I couldn’t do any work. Earlier I had planned of buying the gift on Saturday, and that’s why i have kept the whole day free for this piece of work. 

        On Saturday morning i left my room and travelled first to Commercial street (advised by a c0-passenger when i was coming back from home). The place famous for........ well...after reaching there i went to many shops, showrooms but couldn’t find anything suitable..... 

        After searching for many areas, I finally landed up at C Krishnaiah Chetty & Sons,  probably the biggest and the best jewellery shop in Bangalore. I finally asked the sales man to show some good works.... He then replied “Sir...What you want exactly...necklace, ring, choori”. Now an current passed through me...i had no idea about what I want....What woud suit her. My face turned pale.... Seeing this a lady aging around 40 came near me. She was purchasing some jewellery for her daughter. She asked why uou look pale and confused. I had no idea what to answer. But any how i gathered some courage and told that i needed something to gift....and then i stopped......She asked for whom... and now it is the most difficult question.... A no touch attitude is a term I use to describe at this stage.......shutting out the outside world as much as possible while in the beginning and mid stages of the pursuit of happiness. It's like putting yourself under construction just for the time being while you repair your outlook for the positive and happiness.

I told her every bit...everything...she then smiled and told take this...it would suit her....She selected a golden bracelet....it was very beautiful... something i really had to admire and thanked her.... While i was leaving after making the purchase she called me and gave me a “Ganda Brunda”-- a two headed mythical bird representing royalty, craftsmanship and uniqueness—as its symbol . It is the identity associated with the shop. She told that gift this also.....from Me. I again thanked her and left.

Finally the day arrived.  I do not know how to tell With just THAT HABLARTE, still I am trying to give a small description gathering all my senses.......... I have a habit of reaching late on the very first day....be it anything.... so i prepared myself way before the time and reached the destination by 9 30 am. I went inside the temple and sat on the pendal and started listening to music with my earphones on. After few minutes i got a message from her that she has reached and asking where was I. I went to the gate to receive her. The entrance was crowdy and in that crowd stood a beautiful young girl... she was in modified traditional Indian dress.. (I thought she would be in jeans as she was a bit Hi-fi type....but I was proved wrong). I went to her and wished her Happy Birthday and gave her the gift. She thanked me....it was the first time i heard her voice...it was so sweet..so serene.... we stayed there for around 30 minutes....and then she told me to lets have something and then she took me to the food plaza that was in Bangalore Central. We had food together and then she took me to the men’s section and bought me a Van Heusen shirt and then a PEPE Jeans. Huh!!!. That was so sweet of her. She got my taste in just few minutes. Now i was feeling the inferiority complex infront of an IITian. I did all the weird things that i can so that she will reject me.....but mere bad luck itna acha tha ki it impressed her...she was finding it funny and humorous. She told i was different from the crowd that she used to live in...she enjoyed my company...... She gave a nice compliment....My jaw dropped open..... Gathering all my courage....i came back to my normal life and then we had a casual conversation.... Add to this the sideshows the smile, the way she conversed was just awesome.... which made it even more profitable with its strange phenomena constantly being "proven" right before your eyes, and why not? The end was near, anything could happen, so it did. 

Then she bid adieu and while leaving see told Let’s meet next week which i nodded and then she left. I wanted to get rejected but at the same time i was enjoying her company. I don’t know why i was feeling in such an awkward manner. I was happy for the time being that the date finally ended and sad at the same time that she left. In the end it was a booming and very profitable for both of us. Atleast the time flew by... Mind you, I kept this clearly in mind when I decided to write this...........................
While leaving she said the following line which swept me from the floor and the respect for her grew more....
"We are those who stand out because everything comes together.”



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